Assassination of a Housewife: CPTSD, Mental Health and My part in the Great Awakening

I’ve sat down to write this so many times and stopped and started and stopped and started again and again and again. Why? Imposter syndrome, fear, self doubt triggered by the doubts of those around me, anxiety, OCD, Autism, Complex PTSD from the way I was raised and treated throughout my life. You name it….But here we are, right now…finally speaking. On Mary Magdalene’s Feast Day no less (I started this on the Feast Day and finishing it the following day). Which is Oh so appropriate because she is the reason I am where I am now and the reason I am becoming who I am becoming. So thank you Mary Magdalene and all the Mary’s I have met and known along the way.

Why would I be afraid to write this you ask? Welp, because I’m psychic AF, a direct channeler for the Divine (that means I get messages and downloads straight from Galactic Beings and spirits) a child of God (I’m talking aliens people) here to be part of the Great Awakening as a missionary for Jesus’ teachings (he was an alien too), to be a voice for the voiceless (i.e. mostly my dead ancestors) aaaaannnnd my Ex is using all of this to paint me out as crazy, completely delete me as an excellent mother and take custody of my children so he can let his parents raise them. Meanwhile, I’m a diagnosed CPTSD survivor who was raised by an alcoholic narcissist, became a people pleaser, repeated said pattern throughout my life and then married someone just like my mom. I was a stay home mom raising a 2 year old, 4 year old, my disabled stroke survivor mother and a 40 something man child who wanted a mom instead of a wife. He and his family have left me for homeless and ridiculed my coping tools and treatment for PTSD, OCD, ADHD and Autism with really no intelligence or awarenss of the conditions and or tratments, They seem to be planning on simply taking my children away from me because I won’t stop talking about how “artificial” and hypocritical they are. Cheers! Oh, and they are firm believers in the current day Christian religion which is really just a cult built on blood sacrifice, fear and a control based existence convincing you the you are loved unconditionally but if you sin you are evil and going to hell. So here we go…have a fun read!

The real crux of this whole situation is that I asked a group of people to expand their idea of what human consciousness is, be open minded about Jesus’ teachings, what unconditional love is that we should be walking the walk and talking the talk. Oh and to know that pretty much all the conspiracies about child trafficking, shadow governments, alien bases on Earth, mind control in America, the fake pandemic, our poison food and water supply, etc etc are all true. You know, the usual stuff. Nothing new to see here. At first it wasn’t bad. I mean everyone else thought I was acting weird but I knew I was stepping into authenticity. Then came the blown third eye chakra where I was flooded with psychic abilities and this just complete knowing of everything, everywhere, all at once. I was sprinkling salt everywhere and doing intuitive things that I didn’t understand at the time but many of them made sense later whilst asking for a divorce. In a nutshell…my experience has been one of complete abandonment by my husband. Before my awakening and after. Which leads to the whole point of why I am here to talk about this…saving our children, our families and our joy by helping people realign their priorities.

I agree that some form of concern should have been given after I started praying the demons out of my 4 year old daughter but the situation that has unfolded is nothing short of a masterfully planned soul contract intended for me to completely transform into someone who stops hiding the truth of everything I’ve witnessed in my life so positive change can be made. As mentioned above, realigning priorities.

Even if he had gone with maybe an “ok, this is wild babe but let’s work on it together before we do anything rash” would have been nice. Instead, I got “you’re crazy, you’ve lost your way spiritually and I’m packing up the kids and letting my parents take over.” Yep….awesome….thanks for the dedication. I should not have been surprised though, he was never dedicated to me in our relationship and I knew it, I just didn’t want to believe it. But now I had to because he’d finally shown me that he was willing to endlessly throw me under the proverbial family bus. This entire scenario has been rolled out to paint me out to be a completely unfit mother and to get temporary custody of my daughters who are 2.5 and 4.5. Self admittedly, I didn’t handle the entire process very gracefully but I was also exiting survival mode, breaking through PTSD, honing psychic abilities, talking to Jesus, grieving the death of my marriage and the fact that my husband was willing to throw me away so quickly after the years of sacrifice and unconditional love I had given him. I guarantee you, he would make a similar statement about the love and sacrifice but the problem there is that we have different definitions of unconditional love. His version involves a list of requirements in order to give and receive love while I continued to offer unconditional love over and over again when I knew there were things about him that weren’t for me. I not only overlooked many of them, I made myself feel guilty for even “judging” someone else’s behavior. What I didn’t realize and was never taught is that I wasn’t judging him… I was simply thinking about the things that I could and could not live with in a partner. I believed it was my job to look past those things to the heart of the person beneath. I didn’t want to be with someone who refused to stop drinking for the sake of our marriage or our children, or someone who refused therapy or any meaningful effort towards intimacy in our relationship, someone who constantly made me question myself or ridiculed the things I was interested in….how selfish of me, right?! WRONG!!!

Funnily enough, one of the things my ex-husband absolutely couldn’t stand was how much I watched Ancient Aliens. Everyone…if you are confused abut what is happening in the world right now, go watch Ancient Aliens, join the GAIA streaming network, do some yoga, get into Reiki, detox your body, reduce your stress and pursue something you love doing….it will all make more sense in the long run. It’s the final Ascension, the Blue Star Kachina prophecy, the rise of the Divine Feminine and Masculine Twin Flames. That’s why shit feels so crazy and why many of us are being put in situations that either re-align you with your soul contract or remove you from Earth. For me, it’s lung cancer. I haven’t had it checked by anyone else yet but I’ve already been shown by my spirit guides that I will die from lung cancer if I do not get over my fear of being seen, share the ancient knowledge I carry within and be the person I came to this planet to be. I digress, let’s get back to the main point here. I’m speaking up for those Divine Feminine souls that can’t speak or have come to me for assistance in sharing their stories of shame, abuse and purpose. Because what we have been through collectively in America is nothing short of traumatic abuse starting from when we were born.

Our gender roles have been completely inverted intentionally to keep us in a fear based mindset and existence so that we don’t step into our true nature as human beings. Our true nature is to exist IN nature and not to OBEY corrupt authorities that try to keep us in a moral and financial prison…much like the Native American inhabitants of our land that were wiped out as “savages” by the refined Brits that came over here to tell us what to do. As a generalization, men have shifted FROM doers, servers, leaders and protectors who are designed to work in tandem with their Divine Feminine counter part and have BECOME this mama’s boy, king of the castle, serve me and you will be rewarded, Homer Simpson character who rules with control and a lack of vulnerability instead of with compassion and true leadership. While women have been burdened with taking care of everyone and everything in the household and probably also working because the economy is rough and we’ve been groomed to believe we need money to do everything. And if you aren’t “working” for financial pay and you are a stay at home mom then you are viewed by your partner as not contributing and lose a controlling voice in how money is used. Taking care of yourself becomes something obsolete and in fact something that is looked down upon as selfish, especially if you aren’t contributing “financially”.

This is park of the dark underbelly of the American dream….no one (again generalized – because there are people doing it correctly. They are just in the minority and are referred to as the “free spirits) is getting their “cups” filled with true unconditional love or fulfillment of happiness and joy because we’re all too focused on money, competition, gossip, following the societal rules and then “unwinding” with substance abuse, anger issues, isolation, self doubt, low vibrational dysfunctional activities that fuel keeping us in a control based existence. The “free spirits” are just that…Free! And they are doing it right, going against the current grain and moving back towards our original grain. I’m in a position of having my children taken away temporarily because I believe in the way of the Free Spirit and want to go back to living that existence along with teaching it to my children. We are scheduled to close on our house shortly and I just moved into an RV so I could give up the generations of hoarding that I inherited (P.S. That’s called trauma), live a simpler life, travel the country and spread of message of healing and unconditional love. Golly, what a criminal I am, huh?! Heaven forbid I teach my children to live in union with Mother Earth and each other and to stop focusing on money and acceptance by others as our primary existence. Like Jesus was teaching….it is so easily forgotten that he came with a message that so upset the government and religious authorities it led to his crucifixion. I have experienced a similar shunning in my family because I have brought to light the trauma inherent in our upbringing and tried to talk about how toxic my relationship was so we could fix it but no one really wanted to hear it.

Our original grain, the sturdiness of our existence came from our physical land, our Earth, our original Mother and nurturer in tandem with Father Sky our protector, provider of water and sustenance for what we grow. “Father Sky” is also our benevolent extraterrestrial parents, The Pleiadeans, who have been upgrading and protecting humanity from extinction for centuries. We the humans, the children of Earth, the stewards of the gifts we are given are responsible for respecting them, using them as intended and defending them when used improperly. But what happens when we aren’t taught what “proper use” means? Then we don’t even realize that we’re doing something egregious until we’re told. So, what happens if we tell someone they aren’t using us properly and they don’t listen? There are signs everywhere, we just have to pay attention to them in order to understand. We are all divinely supreme beings who have psychic and telepathic abilities. We’ve just never been taught how to use them properly and they’ve been intentionally poisoned with our culture, our food and our water.

In my marriage, I was not being honored properly. In fact I was abused. Promised one thing and given another. Drained of my light and then ridiculed for not being enough for everyone else, not to mention converted from a confident individual focused on my health and following my dreams to a stay at home couch potato alcoholic (just like my ex and my mom) and I tried to speak up for myself but was ignored and gaslit. All the things promised to me at my wedding and by a Christian family were lies. I married an alcoholic even though I knew he wasn’t my person and into a family that presented themselves to be supportive and loving like Jesus but indeed were only willing to provide “support and love” to strangers, people who didn’t see them for who they truly are or people who validated their belief system. I was told the only way to heaven is to believe that Jesus Christ was the only begotten son of God and he was sent here specifically to die for our sins and as long as we believe that then we are good.

I’ve asked them to shift mindset to believe that Jesus came with a powerful message of unconditional love, loving your neighbor as yourself, always offering help to those in need and treating your body as a temple among other things and that living his message is the truth, the way and the light. We are the light and we each have a divine spark within us. We have each been given a gift to use or squander and I have been called by God to use the gifts of my voice, my heart and my wisdom to spread awareness and bring back joy and laughter again. I’d like to reiterate that these are also messages we heard regularly in “church” but I am being ridiculed for stepping into a calling. Why is it ok for others to step into a calling but not for me?

Like Mother Earth has been telling us, her children, for a long time that she isn’t happy. It wasn’t until I realized that I was punishing myself and my children with negativity in the same ways as my own mother did to me, then I knew I had to make a change. What did we do to our Divine Feminine? Our mothers? Our Earth? We paved over them with industry, with concrete, with bigger, brighter, shinier things…we filled them with silicone and unhealthy food and drink that distracted them from what’s really important. We oversexualize our youth, then shame young women for being sexual beings, then turn them into a single identity of mother that isn’t allowed to be wild because we have to be “buttoned up” for our children.

And now? Now we are yelling and demanding to be seen, heard and allowed taking space to change when all we really want is to be a balance of nature and nurture for our children. Teach them what we can, let them learn on their own, learn FROM them and provide a safe place for them to simply BE. In my personal experience, this is again the part where society has been flip flopped and now I’m being painted as crazy and an un-fit mother when all I really want is a beautiful trauma free life for my daughters and the children of Earth. A place where love an acceptance are real and not just something we say, a place where we are existing in joy and creation instead of working to survive, a place where our children can learn life instead of this false history, fall in line BS being taught in mainstream schools right now, a place where we don’t have to go in search of healthy things.

My belief in all of these things and my righteous stand to defend myself, my identity as a Starseed here to contribute to the ascension of human kind and protect my children and all of our children is so “alien”..no pun intended, but it really just fit right in lol….to the people around me that they are ready to take my children away and drug me up. The alcohol and big pharma drugs are how I got here people, I’m not going back. The problem is, I’ve been doing all this work in the background because I’ve been scared of learning technology (because I was a sculptor in Atlantis that died after we got too big for our britches with technology) and because I’ve been scared of being seen, not being good enough, having my children taken. Whelp that happened today sooooo. I’m also surrounded by people telling me “I don’t believe you, you aren’t who you say you are and you can’t do the things you say you want to do”. Don’t you think that would all be very helpful and encouraging??? NO? Me either.

I’ve known from the beginning of this whole hooty mess (about 9 months) that I was eventually going to have to leave my children with their father for a short time so I could build back better and then they would be able to join me. I’ve been fighting it because I love them so much and seeing the damage inflicted on their little minds and bodies literally hurts my core. However, when the Divine says “you have a mission and you aren’t following it”, the Divine will put situations in front of you that force you to step in to your role if you want to keep playing the game. So, if me telling everyone that Hollywood and the Government are full of pedophiles, Satan worshipers and rampant with child trafficking, child sacrifice and sex abuse and they make laws, music, movies, media and propaganda, food and water to keep us all brainwashed while they sold their souls….then SO BE IT. Did I mention the clones yet??? Should we talk about the Obamas and the Clintons? Or the British monarchy and the Rothschilds? The three popes? The corrupt military that brain washes the good people that sacrifice themselves in the name of service? The inverted religious systems that fool you into following the wrong leader? Covid? Faucci? The Titanic? The Holocaust? That movie Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter was shockingly more accurate than I ever realized. Like, for fuck’s sake at this point.

Love has already won and now the believers are here to help everyone else heal through the things they are learning and are about to learn that the rest of us already figured out (because it was all part of the plan). That’s what all of this is by the way…a game that you have to figure out how to win or lose. It’s kinds like the Truman Show lol. Not to freak you out or anything, your soul is still safe no matter what.

Today, I’m speaking up for our children, our families, our country, our world and myself. Here is what I believe in (not in any specific order and I also wouldn’t call this a final draft…there’s definitely more

- We’re all supernatural beings with extraordinary powers, we just have to learn to use them

- All the stuff we call “woo-woo” is legit reality and all the “legit reality” stuff is just an illusion

- Our galactic family is super pumped about this whole ascension process and the they are all watching to see how we handle the process of the shift

- Life is legitimately ours to create and you already know inside what you want

- Things that are vital to our health, well being and healing shouldn’t be hidden behind a paywall or made to be unattainable by the masses

- It’s literally about unity and living in community off the land, not division and competition

- Uncontaminated free water for everyone, not fluoride riddled poison

- Crystals are healing AF

- Chronic and hereditary medical issues are manifested through past life trauma, generational trauma passed down in your DNA or trauma from this life

- Plant medicine isn’t new age, it is the original medicine

- Cannabis and Sunflowers should be grown freely to detox the soil and all parts of our plants should be used in textiles and medicine

- Grow and eat ALL the mushrooms

- Your body is your temple and your gut health directly affects your ability to think clearly

- It’s always better to help than hurt, no matter who you are dealing with

- If you have something not so nice to say, then you are probably hurting about something

- Healthy foods should be available in all restaurants, street vendors and stores, not just farmer’s markets and farm stands

- I know this is a rough one..but we’re really supposed to be doing the vegan thing. I know, I know…I want a steak every time I say it. Buuuut we aren’t really meant to eat God’s animals especially in a mass slaughter trauma event

- Everyone should have access to free housing

- Insurance is the biggest fucking scam

- Art is healing and we should all be creating things with our hands to heal

- Music is healing and we should all be listening to and/or making it

- Light and vibration therapies are healing

- Movement releases trauma and stuck negative energy stuck in the tissue and fascia of our bodies and helps us not be mean to people

- Bananas cheer you up

- We were not meant to come here, work, pay taxes then die

- You should never have to withhold your opinion/experience to make someone else feel comfortable

- People cheat because they can’t figure out how to communicate their needs, desires or what makes them feel loved

- We should be taking the power of money away by going back to barter and trade based societies

-Men should have a safe space to feel vulnerable and lead his family and women should be allowed to get out their rage/trauma and heal their wombs so they can truly nurture again. At the end of that rope is our children. Heal for you and for them.

- We have duality, all of us. Light and darkness. Embrace both for balance. Nothing about you is inherently wrong. (Note- this is the only statement that I intuitively put a “.” After. There are no coincidences. Shame, fear, sorrow and anger are things we should not live in. There is nothing inherently wrong with you because of your trauma period)

- You are your own judge, jury and executioner

- Man’s law is pretty much bullshit and you can’t follow it completely without compromising integrity

- Tiny ants are really annoying

- Laughing is the only kind of infection I enjoy

- The Earth and Sky need to be detoxed of pollutants to heal

- Our world should be colorful, not covered in abandoned buildings and things that are falling apart

- Life is always worth living

- Hometowns should feel cozy not a place you don’t want to go

- Everyone should be free to let their individual freak flag fly

- DO ALL THE THINGS!

I mean, there’s definitely more but I think this is the nutshell right now. In support of some of the beautiful souls that have been guiding me to this point (because the same issues have also plagued me at some point) I’d like to share their messages. Addiction is mind over matter and can absolutely be worked through, it does not have to be a stigma that hangs over you forever. Substance abuse occurs a result of trauma…because something makes you want to escape or because you’ve been made to feel like you need help to simply be comfortable being yourself. No one should be left alone in crisis. If someone opens up to you about mental health issues, especially suicidal ideation…it matters, pay attention. When people have seen “too much” and are forced/manipulated into secrecy it really fucks them up…that’s typically where you get robot or “mental patient”. People with mental health concerns are really very spiritually sensitive and are likely under attack, not grounded or simply don’t understand their gift or how to use it. When you marry a wildflower, don’t try to turn her into a houseplant…it won’t work out.

Looks like we are going to start wrapping this up, I feel as though we have reached a point of information overload. However, I have court in the morning to discuss further custody of my children and can’t wait to share the hypocrisy of whatever happens…i.e. my ex’s attorney makes blanket falsehoods and half-truth statements about me and he just sits there like its all ok. Meanwhile, I have no legal representation in court and have launched zero case against him as multi decade alcoholic who has put himself, the safety of our family and our children in jeopardy on more occasions than I can count. But this is the game. I made my bed, now I have to cannonball into it. Stay tuned for further updates. This is just the tip of the iceberg, but you might have to wait for my book to get the full story.

Now go live a life you don’t want to escape.

Love,

Me (aka Liz, NotUr Common Shaman)